happy.

I loved today.

I am excited for more of these happy days to come.

This weather really just does something for me.

Changes me.

Tonight I am going to bed happy and invigorated.

Looking forward to making french toast for my babies tomorrow morning.

Excited to see what the day will bring.

10

Nixon,

To celebrate you turning 10 months old, I wanted to tell you 10 things that I love and adore about you....

1. I love that tickling your back gets you to calm down and often gets you to fall asleep.

2. I love how wild and strong you are.

3. I love how you steal food from your siblings and that I can't count the number of times I have caught you with your own apple.

4. I love that we can't tell what color of eyes you really have. They are a deep blue with brown in the middle. I wonder if they will stay or change. Either way, they are beautiful.

5. I love that you still sleep in our bed. 

6. I love watching you watch the kids play in the back yard through the windows of the back door. 

7. I love how much you love your dad. You can't get enough of him. You freak out when he comes home and cry when he leaves.

8. I love that you look exactly how I thought you would. I knew you would have soft blond curls.

9. I love your dimples and they way your smile lights up your face. 

10. I love that since you were a newborn you are always happy to see me and want me. When you were almost 4 weeks old you opened your eyes, saw me, closed them and smiled. It has always felt like you were happy I was around and that is an incredible feeling. 

I love you Nixy!!!!!

Tell me I'm not the only one :)

Man oh man.

I am too young to know what I'm doing in reguards to raising my children - do ya feel me?!

I always assumed that my mom knew what she was doing because I never remember her struggling. She just always knew what to do.

I assumed that when I became a mother I would magically know everything.

3 kids later and I'm pretty sure I have the baby thing down pat.

But the thing that I didn't realize is that I don't have all the answers.

I dont' magically know everything.

I didn't realize that I would have to tell my children that my mom died and why.

I didn't realize that i would need tell my son at such a young age that not everyone belives in the same thing but we try to understand and love one another anyway.

I understood that parenting would be filled with time outs and changing diapers.

But I honeslty didn't realize that I am literally helping shape a human being into what they will be in this life.

Not in the future when I will magically have all the answers, but now.

So how do I do that when I still feel like a 19 year old girl?

Like who gave me permission to help guide another person in this life when I don't know exactly how?

What I do realize is that I have a lot of growing and learning to do.

And everyday I am changing and growing right alongside my tiny loves.

Even though I don't have all the answers, I got a lot of love and that's gotta count for something right?

 Right?!?!

:)

Nixon M.

So my youngest little darling is 9 months!!!

Here is some Nixon via instagram 

I really can't say enough good things about you Nix.

You now love tubby time!! (before it was a lot of crying and shaking) - you get so wild and crazy it's like your playing on a slip n' slide. The kids love getting to bathe with you because you splash and get so excited - it's a lot of fun - and wetness. :) 

You now wave thanks to the help of your great grandma Jensen. She was the first to get you to wave and the first to get you to wave at everyone else - not just at her :) I love it. It's so special. She loves you so and is very proud of you, I pray you get some good time with her. She's beautiful!

You are wild and crazy and the best!

Seriously, it's hard to imagine it being any better than this - I'm having the time of my life with you!

I love love love you so!

xoxo

Boys

Roman and Jameson are not just cousins, they are best friends.

They are 3 years apart.

And have had a connection since before Rome came out of my belly.

Jameson was 3 when I was pregnant with Rome and he would say "he's comin after peach days!"

Their 3 year gap hasn't made them skip a beat.

They have always played so well together.

They have always been best friends.

Today Jameson and his family had to move away.

It was incredibly hard but Roman sent me over the edge (emotionally) when he cried about it numerous times.

He would cry and shake and break my heart.

It has been extreemly hard watching my son experience heartache for the first time in his young life.

We know we will see them again and are happy for them and their new adventure.

But we will miss them everyday.

We love you Jameson Wayne!!!!

Here I am

The weather has been so awesome lately that we have been playing like crazy!

Bbq-ing, throwing the tramp up, playing outside, buying water mellon, and fighting off wasps which for some reason adore my house and love to torment me. 

Easter was beautiful.

My sister moved and I am crushed, but also stoked that she moved somewhere that is warm during the winter so I can go see her and the sun.

My life is full right now.

Amazing and full.

I love it. 

8 whole months

Nixon, I feel like words don't do you justice.

When I look at you beautiful words comes to mind.

Precious. Heavenly. Happy. Beautiful. love. 

But even these don't feel like they do the job.

I adore you.

I am so happy you are my son. 

You are quite the wild one.

You are always go go go.

You have added momma for sure and na na to your vocabulary

You still eat like a champ.

You can now get down from when you pull up onto something which is so nice because now you don't cry for help.

You are getting your 2 top teeth in at the same time and needless to say, you are none too pleased.

You got sick a couple of weeks ago and you are now getting back to being yourself.

For over a week you wouldn't let me put you down. You slept so restlessly and you were miserable. I felt terrible I couldn't help.

I love seeing the "old you" come back ;)

You sleep 1/2 the night in your crib and the other 1/2 in my bed.

I'm totally cool with it and I would go as far as to say I love it.

I love you Nix.

Happy 8 months my love!

Fire. Station.

Can I just start off by saying how much I love Romans preschool?

I adore his teachers and I will be so sad when he leaves to go to "real" school ;)

Thank goodness Lola will be filling his shoes for the next two years and hopefully Nix after that.

I love it there, I wish I could work there.

For reals.

It looks. so. fun.

So a couple of weeks ago the kids got to head out on a field trip to the fire station. 

Roman had a lot of fun and I am so glad I got to tag along :)

My lack of blogging has been a combination of being busy, lazy, sick and now dealing with both my boys being sick.

They have both been sick since Friday and the dr said they will be contagious for a week & the sickness lasts for ten days! or more!

No preschool. No friends.

It's a bug that's going around that mimicks the flu. 

Achy body, fever, headaches etc.

You can just see it in their eyes they don't feel good.

Poor Nix wants to be held literally all. day.

And Rome has been putting himself down for naps and bedtime.

Crossing my fingers they get better quick! 

Nix is no spring chicken and is breaking my arms ;)

Our "adventure"

You wanna know what?

The other day when I picked up Rome from preschool I got a wild hair.

I took all three kids.... out to eat....by myself.

It. was. awesome.

I don't get too crazy when it comes to handling all three hooligans alone so it felt extremely liberating to go do something I wouldn't normally do.

We had pancakes and hot chocolate.

It was seriously one of our best days.

The 7th month

HAPPY 7 MONTHS NIX!!!!

How did we get here so soon?!?!

My dear chubby little nugget you are now 18 lbs.

You LOVE to eat.

You crawl everywhere. 

And you now think you get to climb up the stairs.

You say Dada and Baba & when you cry I have heard you say Mama even though I don't have a witness so technically it doesn't count ;)

You just got your first tooth!

You love to sleep on your belly.

You love your siblings and scream when you play with them because you are so excited and happy.

You are the epitome of a "bouncing baby boy"

You are honestly the icing on the cake of our family.

I am beyond proud to be your momma.

I love you!!!

xoxo